“Surely a man has come to himself only when he has found the best that is in him, and has satisfied his heart with the highest achievement he is fit for.”
Stick with this one darlings, it’s going to be a meandering read, but it will make sense in the end. I promise.
We all have days that mark significant changes in our lives.
Yesterday was one of them. Well, for me anyway my juicy little plums.
It was the kind of day that demands a popped cork,some kind of celebration with someone special, and the quiet contemplation of feeling the satisfaction of accomplishment.
Although I love order, knowing the next step, the next task, and the next expectation, I love happy endings even more. Which aren’t endings at all really. They’re just bright shiny markers on the twisting, turning road of life.
I had definite plans in my head about how this long weekend would roll-out. I allowed myself the indulgence of daydreaming about seeing someone very special on Friday night, working my ass off on Saturday and Sunday, and relaxing on Monday. Even though I had some work to do, I was ok with what I had thought my plans would be. (Refer to How to Enjoy a Long Weekend).
But my plans went the way of good intentions around 9:30am yesterday morning. I arrived home at least two hours later than I had planned and had to rush or entirely abandon all of my deliciously sinful daydreams. Instead, I settled for a quick shower and threw on some comfy clothes. It’s amazing what a combination of total freedom and stability can achieve emotionally.
So, although my day, and as it turns out, my evening was not what I had expected, I experienced one of the best days I’ve had in a long, long time. So good in fact, that my plans for working my ass off today and tomorrow have been abandoned. Apparently all of my hard work has already paid off for now, and I can take time to re-focus, creatively strategize, and allow myself the indulgence of a little hope.
Between work, parenting, friendships and men, I’ve re-learned a few lessons this week;
1) Always believe, deep down in your core, that you have value and something wonderful to offer the world.
2) You never communicate as clearly and brilliantly as you think you do. Make space for intentional conversation with no expectations. Speak from your heart.
3) Logic will never speak the language of emotion. Sometimes our hearts take us to places more rich, a bit scarier and way more satisfying than our heads ever will. Be brave and pack a lunch.
4) Given the truth in item #2, there are always people out there who care about you more than you know or could even guess.
5) To be still and present in the darkness of the soul is a skill that takes practice and incredible courage. Learn to connect with your breath.
6) Prepare for the worst, expect the best, and don’t be afraid to ask for what you want.