“Commitment is that turning point in your life when you seize the moment and turn it into an opportunity to alter your destiny.”
I wish that I could say that this post was inspired by a deeply intellectual article that I read. I also wish I had that damn article, so I could quote it accurately.
But I don’t. You are stuck with my inadequate muttering. As much as this post was inspired by the article on commitment, it was very much inspired by my carrousel-like love-life.
The article was about turning the idea of ‘commitment’ on its head.
In other words, instead of associating commitment with discipline, patience and exertion, it argued that commitment was the most freeing thing in the world. After all, once you’ve committed to something, you’re committed. There is no more weighing benefits and drawbacks. You don’t have to double-check your black book or worry that lover #1 is calling whilst you are endeavoring to be romantic with lovers #2, 3 or 4. Once you’re committed, you’re committed.
This was an incredible idea for me, the goddess-of-all-things-commitmentphobe. I can’t even say the ‘C’ word without stuttering and choking a little bit.
This idea was as illuminating as my friend Ms. M’s ever-ready question about men behaving below standard, ” If this is what it’s like in the beginning, what will it look like at the end?”
Wise Ms. M. Very wise indeed.
Just as wise is my own firm belief that should a man wish to be in your life, he is. It’s as simple as that. It’s easier to shake a hungry dog off a pork chop than an interested man from your life.
Men who want to be with you make extraordinary efforts to be with you. They don’t put it off for a week, or a couple of weeks, or even a day. If they’re hot for you my delicious gal-pals, they will be present. They will be proper and they will be thorough.
There shall be ‘good mornings’, ‘good afternoons’ and ‘sweet dreams’, communications daily.
My looming business trip should be punctuated at both ends by romantic gestures, even if it’s just sending a text to let me know he’s going to miss me and then dropping by as soon as I get home. Enthusiasm gets rewarded with enthusiasm gents.
You see, another piece of wise advice that has filtered through the poo-poo this year is, ” You don’t get married on the first date.”
In other words, you don’t have to make a commitment to everything all at once. You can commit in little bits over time.
I believe trust works the same way. Trust is not absolute, it’s elastic. There are levels of trust, and someone proves their trustworthiness over time.
But I’m a woman known for her fire, her passion, her decisiveness in business and life. I recognize that my greatest strength is also my greatest weakness.
I visualize this just as one would visualize jumping into a pool. I leap with the great expectation that I will dive deep, push up from the bottom and burst through the surface to take a delightfully deep breath of fresh air.
Sometimes however, I skitter across the pool deck, stub my toe, spill my drink, and bonk my head on the way down, only to be saved by my incredibly buoyant lady-parts.
So, as you may have guessed, I’m currently in a state of relationship ‘yo’ (“when your heart says yes and your mind says no, is the magical state of yo” – thank the Smothers Brothers for that one).
Admittedly, I’m a romantic, flighty, soul-mate wanting, twenty-first centuray hippie woman. I have also been betrayed and heartbroken in ways that would unstuff the average bear. Perhaps some time away is just what the to-commit-or-not-to-commit doctor ordered.
So, I will consider all of the advice I’ve been given, dished, and sought. Commitment is indeed the greatest freedom. Right now, I just don’t know which way it’s going to go.